Dear Self
I'm sorry for always putting you second to other people's priorities
It breaks my heart to recall all those nights you cried yourself to sleep.
It wasn't out of desperation for men that you cut yourself, I'm sorry I never taught you how to control anger
I'm sorry I let you trust people you shouldn't have trusted
I'm sorry I let you welcome people in your life you should've just greeted
They hurt you and I was there making you believe it is just how life is
A lot of times you have found yourself in the battlefield
I'm sorry I have made you believe you can fight on your own
With no armour you watched people throw stones, grenades and bullets at you
I'm sorry I forgot it's not every battle one can fight on their own
I let you believe you only need yourself
I was selfish to let you believe people are only there to hurt
All those bullets shot at you, maybe a friend would have helped you dodge them
You lost them,
You felt let down
They say "a problem shared is half solved"
I was wrong to make you believe this was a lie
Everything you kept inside broke you
Every tear you dropped tore you
You struggled inside to find answers
It pains me to know I killed your faith in God
I fueled to your thoughts in questioning God's existence
All those nights you cried to God and felt abandoned
I wish I could take them back to assure you God was listening
I wish I could tell you God's silence does not mean he's not there
I know it's not too late, you will get there
A lot of times life has thrown you in the dirt
I'm sorry I made you speak up for others
When you couldn't speak up for yourself
When you were sexually harassed, I made you believe things would get better
But how were they going to get better if you didn't speak up?????
I am not good at promises but for you I will try
Never been into gambling, but I'll bet happiness for you
I promise to put you before second place
I promise to fight the world for you
I will rush to the front line to protect you
Your priorities I will put first
When you feel you cannot do it, I will be there to give you hope
Dear Self, I will fight every battle side by side with you
I will not leave you halfway until we are through
I am from the Warm Heart of Africa (Malawi). A holder of a Bachelor's degree in Journalism obtained at Blantyre International University. I am passionate about joining the Army and I am the World's future Air Force Soldier.
I believe in equal opportunities among men and women. We have a long way to go to achieve this but I will make sure I see the day when gender won't define any human so I will fight for gender equality.
I love expressing my feelings on a paper because it relieves my pain.
